28 September 2010
Fate
What exactly is it?
Something people make up.
Something people strive to.
Live by its rules.
Like a goal. Set to make you reach it. Full of hard word and determination. The Oxford dictionary says” (as a plural) Things, especially bad things that will or have happened to somebody or something”
A bit vague, don’t you think?
No real meaning.
And the fact that they said that it is usually bad things makes you wonder, ponder for a moment. Yes, it is that prisoner’s fate, who committed murder, that he will be put to death.
But it is also my fate that I will be married in the next 4 days. Or is that a guess .
Something that might not happen.
Something that will happen.
But thats just as a plural of course.
OR IS IT FATE
A “bad” thing this marriage is…
“Fate-(No plural) the power that some people believe controls everything that happens”
Who are these “some people”?
Are they human?
Or is it against human nature to believe that a higher power controls or evn exists.
What does it control?
They good
The bad
The …
Not so nice
This higher power.
Does it choose who it would like to help?
Does it make tough choices and
Dare I say it?
Does it know for whom it is making these choices. For whom it is controlling.
But enough religion.
Fate lies very close to destiny and in turn it lies close to coincidence.
Like when I searched for a song I heard once at a rugby match and discovered ,while in England, that my uncle has purchased it on itunes.
I downloaded and listened to it right there and then on my brand new ipod(that I got for Christams)
Enjoying the very song I have been searching for ,for a whole year.
Finally my ipod got stolen and I lost that very song. Forgot to save it on my PC.
So I gave up.
Never heard that song again.
I longed to .
Yes, But what can one do?
Some days I would listen to the song on youtube. But it would not satisfy.
So here I am 4 years later. Since I first heard that song. With a new ipod and a new love for different styles of music.
Much different than what I listened to 4 years ago.
I have forgotten the song.
I have forgotten that feeling .
The beat that was so familiar to me.
And you would think that it was a huge surprise when I found that song ,again
It was on a CD I bought. 5 years ago
Now you ask.
But why had I never listened to the CD? I might have heard the song and noticed it.
I don’t know
But why didn’t I go on itunes and download it again?
I did not know the name of the song.
Why didn’t I …
Stop asking all of these questions!
I already found the song and I listened to it everyday.
What more is there that you need to know?
I know am able to play every beat on the drum. I can strum my guitar to the tune. I can recite the lyrics in my sleep. I can pluck the bass in my dreams.
Was that my fate?
To learn the song that touched my soul.
The song that I made a cover for.
The song that made me famous at my high school battle of the bands.
The song that had so much meaning to me that it felt like my own child.
A child I had lost and over the course of 5 years have come in contact with again and now.
Where do I go from now?
I have done everything for this song. I have no more tasks to complete. No more years of searching.
Is this the end?
Do I forget the song and move onto another
Or is it all just a coincidence …
Or was it my destiny …
